So I will take this post to give a big update with how things are going now that I am 3 months and 19 days post op! (WOOT WOOT!)
My energy level has continued to shoot up. I've noticed a considerable increase in my abilities, even since my last post. Even on 6 hours of sleep I am able to go through my day considerably functional (something that was not possible without a cup of coffee last semester). With the increase in my energy level I have been able to do more tasks. Biking around campus is continually easier. In my P.E. class I have been able to improve the number of push-ups and sit ups I can do! I am getting my body back in shape!
There is still a bit of "pain" in my chest. Its more like soreness and I think most of it comes from my morning fitness class. Some of the activities require me to stretch my arms straight behind my back with weight. While push-ups do not bother me, these exercises do and cause a bit of soreness the next day. (No worries, I have discontinued the exercise, but thought important to share here).
In regards to campus activities I have begun to get more involved physically as well. With my fellow classmates I cheered my Wofford Terrier Basketball team on in Asheville as they beat WCU in the SoCon Championship (jumping up and down so much I got out of breath and lost my voice!) I then joined in the cheers as we put up a great fight against Michigan in the first round of the NCAA tournament. Then, a few weeks ago I competed with my sorority in a Panhellenic "Lip Sync competition" (We won of course! :D) While I was not on stage very long, I spent the entire rest of the 6 minute routine jumping and screaming on the sidelines with my sisters (quite the cardio if you ask me) and was completely able to keep up. I also participated in the "fountain challenge." This is a challenge going around college campuses which requires those tagged in the viral Facebook post to jump into a freezing cold fountain within 24 hours of being tagged. Of course I had to get in on the fun and jumped in when I got the chance! No hypothermia or infection, but such a blast!
Emotionally things are ten times better than last semester as well.
I took time this weekend to look over my old posts and get a feel for how things have changed. Before the surgery the daunting fear of what could go wrong, of the pain, of the closeness with mortality, of you name it, drove me into a really tough place. That is part of the surgery preparation for most people with CHD on their way to having OHS. It is tough to anticipate something so big and so life altering without feeling incredibly stressed and hopeless. Add to that the feeling of being handicapped and bound to nap time and you begin to feel as if you are trapped in a pit of unrelenting hopelessness. Feelings of desperation, abandonment and utter sadness defined much of my last semester. While I tried to mask them and put on a happy face, they came out in the quiet of my room or in my conversations with family. I was very excited to be treated for my condition, but the nerves and anxiety often tried to cloud that optimism. In case you didn't notice when you looked through my blog, these feelings changed immediately. As soon as I woke up from surgery a new excitement took over (quieted a bit by the grogginess caused by all those drugs, but still there). Some days of recovery were still tough as I was still pretty weak compared to my friends and also bound to a couch, but for the most part I could see the opportunities the future held and no longer worried about impending doom with my surgery. It was DONE! Now, with even more distance this sadness has completely disappeared. Sure, some days I may be grumpy, mad or sad about a test, an argument with a friend, etc. but these are ordinary, not life altering bumps in the road. The huge weight has gone and in its place a multitude of new experiences and opportunities!
The difference between last semester and this semester is HUGE. I am so thankful to the wonderful friends in my life who were there for me throughout the entire process and who continue to celebrate this new lease on life with me this year. Next week is Spring Break (praise the LORD!) and I will be going to the beach with friends to tan (Adding a bit of Zinc Oxide to my scar so there will be no burning that new skin!). Its going to be a great time to be a normal, ordinary college student enjoying showing off her brand new scar! I look forward to making great new memories and adding adventurous tales to the larger one of my surgery! Look out world!